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You have to be a special kind to do the things you do
And keep a tab of who said what, and what was done by who
No matter what the circumstance, no matter what the scene
Everything is personal, all lines read in between.
You keep these things you can’t let go on a tidy little list
In the pockets of your mind and you use them like a fist
And blow them on your friend or kin, it really matters not
The bruise you leave has been conceived by things they all forgot.
And when you’re done and walk away your victim sits there reeling
But big and tall and straight you go, your head should rub the ceiling
Never does it occur that maybe you misunderstood
Your focus was on revenge, it must have felt so good.
So late in life it’s lonely and you’re forced to stand alone
The world revolves around not just one – you really should have grown.

The net was woven over time
It started on its own-
Later on in life
I felt how it had grown.
It wasn't seen or touched
Yet was there all the same
Weaved over years
I never knew its name.
Until one day as fate would have
A weakness it did show
Unraveling had begun,
Oh what a painful blow.
I couldn’t stop it, couldn’t help
The threads now were frayed…
I never saw it coming,
Much to my dismay.
And it was defined for me to see
and I came to know
Comfort, Faith, Security…
my net that held me so.

How can one heal their heart on their own
While landing the blame and hate that’s been thrown?
How to stay still in the midst of the storm
of doubt that rains from the home you were born?
Hard to see sunshine and smile each day
While slander and coldness lies in your way.
 
But tough you must be, and strong you must act
For weakness will bring on a different attack
Of being rude, cold, mean, and hurtful in spite-
No matter your feelings, it’s those who are right.
Broken hearts are tallied on only one side-
The unaccountable, the ones blinded by pride
Those who spit venom and never look back
To see who’s left reeling behind their attack
You can’t have emotion or react in a way
to defend yourself…you have nothing to say!
They look instead at you for more reason
To cast you aside, accuse you of treason!
 
So all the while keep doing your best
To keep your composure and pass all the tests
Pray for the light that exposes the wrong
Don’t wait for apologies, you won’t hear that song
Instead lean on those whose closeness you’ve sown
For no one can heal their heart on their own.

Stand up tall, you’ll always be
Higher than the nearest tree
Stand up tall and have no doubt
Your character most live without
Stand up tall and don’t look back
Pay no heed to the attack
Stand up tall and close your eyes
Feel God’s love, not their despise
Stand up tall and know for sure
Your children know your heart is pure
Stand up tall and look around
Your work has made others proud
Stand up tall and look ahead
Your future is not full of dread
Stand up tall and know forever
Your love and strength I’ll always treasure

You walk in a room and look around
To see if favor can be found
And search hard into the eyes
Of family who hide the lies
Or maybe doubt cast on you
By someone else, you know who
And you can do nothing to recapture
The faith and love you had before
Someone else has closed that door