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Will you sustain me in turbulent times
            While the storm is raging and the toll bell chimes?
Will you be my rescue during this flood?
            In emotions I’m swimming and swallowing blood!
Are you my rock that is higher than all
            Can I bring you my issues, no matter how small?
 
I know that you’re there and always will be
            No matter how much I rely on just me
I get to my end and I cry out once more
            Then you show me your love like always before
Forgive me oh Lord for my weakness in faith
            And thank you again for your infinite grace.

I wanna jump and run away
To leave behind the things you say
And worry not another day
No reason left to sit and stay.
 
I wanna pack my things and go
No patience left, I told you so
The day has come, behold and lo
Not staying for another show.
 
I wanna shut you out for good
And hurt you like I know I could
But be like you I never would
Leave in silence, yes I should.
 
But that’s not how this thing will end
I’m owed too much a dividend
To gift it all to you my friend
The prize is mine to apprehend.

How many left turns will it take
                  before you make it right
All the rugs you pull away
                  To make me less upright?
You can’t accept the truth you see
                  With blinder glasses on
But still you argue once again
                  The way so proven wrong.
 
The lies you tell so plain to me
                  And spoken to my face
Have let me know how easily
                  You act with such disgrace
No bearing of a right or not
                  Your mind is truly set
Favoritism is your choice,
                  The only certain bet.
 
One day, maybe, soon enough
                  You’ll lie awake in bed
And count the times you hit replay
                  On all the things you said
It may just prove to be the time
                  You realize all you’ve done
Lonely will that hour be…
                  Longing for your son.

The deck was dealt
And blindly you
Have made your play
The outcome stands
Defined again
By cards you’ve laid
The chips uneven
Scattered ‘round
With little worth
Favor shown
Against just one of
Your own birth
King or jack
Or queen perhaps
It matters not
When love itself
Is wholly what
Has been forgot

You’ll never be the boss of me, I know you think you are
You cannot tell me where to live or how to drive my car
You cast a glance upon my life and judge me from afar
And seize the opportunity to rule me like a czar
 
You feel you’re right to have control and rule me as you would
And pick and choose what’s bad in me, instead of what is good
And force your choices in my life in every way you could
And haughtily refuse to ponder if you really should
 
Money isn’t everything, perhaps this should be stressed
Relationships and love for people is where we most are blessed
Forgiveness for those close to us, the ones who have confessed
Instead you count a measurement of who has passed your test
 
On the day when this is done and accusations are no more
You’ll look around and wonder why there’s no one at your door
And reflect in depth the choices as you never have before
Then realize it wasn’t wise to keep your kind of score